Ignore this

Haaaa never thought it would hurt like this. How could you have the power to gave me so much happiness and turn it all to a massive pain? Start to wonder if my choice were right.. It may be hopeless for a story with no ending, but trust me it is more hopeless to struggling yourself from this kind of emptiness. Oh god, please let this feeling dies. Please tell me what's sadder, publicly happy and talk to anyone but deep inside is totally sick.. or the opposite one? Kinda unfair that I have to keep my promise while you can happily moving on. But soon, I will recover. Let go.. Let go.. Let go.. All is well. :)

Wanted!

I can't sleep, too many thoughts on my mind. Now I realize that sometimes all you ever need is a good listener and a shoulder to cry on. I hate to cry myself in silence to sleep. Alone. With a thousand thoughts that keep hitting me... I start to forget how it feels like to be happy. Pathetic, huh? 

Btw #1DThisIsUs is coming up on cinema this 30th august but in Pekanbaru maybe 28/29/30 august or more? -_- I dunno who to ask, I'm not sure that sw clod nove yanti will going to watch it. T.T Okay, let's see later. 

I will survive

"At first I was afraid

I was petrified
I kept thinking I could never live without you
By my side

But then I spent so many nights
Just thinking how you've done me wrong
I grew strong
I learned how to get along

...................................."

Listening to "Cake - I will survive" and dance crazily probably is a good way to move on. I'm so busy to make myself busy sooooo here I am : Stand in front of mirror, make sure there's no one else in the room except me, play the music to the max and dance yeahhh!! Tired but relieved, believe me! >:)

Just information : My friends told me that I look a lot like a Japanese. In my family, my sister and brother looks like my dad and mom except me who didn't got any gen of my parents. Start to believe that I'm actually a Japanese who is lost in Indonesia and being adopted by my parents. The evidence is........ I love sushi. HAHAHAHAHA!

    

我的快乐, 会回来的~

Berbekal ke-sotoy-an gue, hari ini gue mencoba membuat mie goreng kocok telur. Belum sempat browsing dan belum nanya mama, gue langsung main masak dan goreng. Untuk first attempt ini mungkin termasuk berhasil, tapi dari segi ke-profesional-an masak bisa di bilang masakan gue... gagal...

    

Sumfeh gueh galauuuu. Karna galau, gue kemudian nyanyi keras2 lagu carly rae jepsen yg lagi gue puter 'Tonight I'm Getting Over You' dan kiddos2 ini pun menantap gue dgn pandangan '.....' yg kemudian berubah menjadi sesi foto2 bareng kiddos. Karna org galau itu ababil, jadi untuk kali ini gue bikin postingan elo gue. Absurd abisss.....

Btw hari ini hujan deras lagi, kayak hatiku yang juga lagi hujan. :-) 

Flowery friday!

Today me, my mom, nevin, nevin's mom and CH went to sun city to had our dinner. Usually I will order soto ayam every time I want to eat soto, but today I ordered soto medan. My friends always told me that everything in Medan are yummy and some are super yummy. But I'm a little bit surprised when my soto medan came. Now I had my own definition about soto medan -soto with a LOT of toge instead of bihun and kinda curry soup-

And I also did some selca! Hahahha. Btw I have had my front bangs back ^^v

#OOTD: floral pattern short 🌸

Btw it was raining so hard just now, and I find out that I really really really hate driving in the rainy day. Must 4x extra careful just to be safe. :| 

HELP ME!

Firstly, I'm fuck up over everything. I want to move to another place in this very moment, if only I could. Does anyone have any suggestion where should I go for my college/univ? My dad asks me to stay in Surabaya and maybe I will enroll to Ciputra University. But I'm in doubt, where should I go? T.T Btw I'm going to take tourism in that university. But now I'm thinking should I go to somewhere else instead? Please I need some help.....

Dear YOU

Hey, I miss you. Every night in my sleep, every time I spaced out, everyday. I'm sorry I've brought us to goodbye. I know I got no right to miss you, but yeah I do. I wish I could just ignore my jealousy of overly thinking about you with someone else. Beginning are always the hardest, but I'm sure I will get used to it someday.  I wish nothing but the best for you, have a good life. :)

Some of move on pictures that I found on weheartit 👍

My current lockscreen :

Hahahahahah. Move the hell on sherrr!! 

说好的幸福呢